Do you ever feel like a failure in life… or in homeschooling? You can overcome your past and get back on track when you feel like a failure!
I am a failure.
There. I said it. As much as I try, I still mess up. I was fired from my last job, and I wonder if I was at least partly to blame. My marriage is broken, without much hope for restoration. As a mom, I often fall far short of my best. And don’t even ask about homeschooling. I can’t remember the last time we actually finished our plans for the year. Maybe never.
Then I look around, and everyone else seems to have it all together. Facebook pages show happy families. Blogs give advice on how to have the best year ever. And the family sitting across from me at church looks like they’ve got it all together. But I sit here as a broken, messed up momma in need of grace, and I feel like I’m all alone.
But while I might feel like the only one making all of the mistakes, I am not alone. Scripture has many examples of people who failed. Moses was a murderer. Abraham doubted God – more than once. David struggled with sexual sin. These are people who failed… yet God used them – even in their mess!
From Mess to Message
I think the Apostle Paul must have felt like a failure at times. I mean, really! He killed and imprisoned Christians! He was a crusader on a mission to rid the world of these awful people who followed Jesus. But he saw a light during his travels and he was miraculously changed. I can just imagine what people must have said! “Yeah, he says he’s different, but I can’t believe it! He took my brother to jail!” or “I just don’t trust him. This is just a trick!” and “A light? Really?”
I imagine it took some time before most Christians of that day would look past his failures. Or maybe they weren’t as petty as we are today? I don’t know, but I’m sure it would have been easy for Paul to give up on living for God, and to go back to what he was before. I’m sure he regretted his past. He might have had nightmares about the people he imprisoned. But he defeated his doubts and became the greatest missionary that ever lived.
Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus. Philippians 3:13-14
The Apostle Paul discovered the secret to getting past the regrets. He knew he wasn’t perfect, but he knew he had to keep moving to get to the finish line.
So, homeschooling momma, if you didn’t finish the math book last year, don’t give up! Figure out where you need to go from here, and keep pressing. If you lost a job, keep looking and working hard until you succeed. If you’ve fallen flat on your face, get up and try again. Keep pressing toward the mark that God has called you to!